Everyone changes, for better, for worse. No matter, I've changed. I notice I hadn't been who I wanted to be all along; myself. Not to be a moody teenager and everything, but I'm tired of how things have been. Tired of how I've lived my life. In a shell of someone who I'm not. Granted, I always thought I've been myself, but it just seems like I'm a new person recently. Maybe I'm stupid. Maybe I'm wrong. But no matter what, changes have been going on. And they're here to stay. I'll probably update this more often, so yippee?

So I've been M.I.A lately. Well school has been the BIGGEST pain in the butt. I've been so tired and so over everything so I haven't really concentrated on this blog. I feel really bad cause I mean I have a pretty decent following so it's not like I'm doing this for nothing. But I promise there is more to come. Summer is here (well in a week I'll officially be out of school) and I get to do this 24/7. So don't give up on me just yet.

This girl I follow: MassachusettsMask is having this awsome giveaway for her accomplishment of reaching 200 followers! It's a MAC giveaway were you can choose a blush, eyeshadow AND lipstick! It's almost too great to miss out on! Just in case, I'm putting the link in the sidebar so you can check it out!

Well I'm unfortunately moving into a new house soon due to us being broke and not being able to afford our house anymore so I'm taking this oppourtunity to completely redesign my room. I'm going off these types of looks:

Along the lines of those. I just don't know exactly what I like the best.. I'm probably gonna have a mish-mash of them all.

So after thinking about everything that goes on in my life, I realize that I have a bad case of codependency. Codependency is when you rely on others to make you feel good like a significant other and such. I've always thought of myself as a rather independent person but when I really sit down and think about it, I notice I'm really not. I have awful esteem issues, I feel like everyone is against me (rather angsty if I do say so), and that I just feel like crap which I shouldn't. I know I don't deserve that and I know that I shouldn't be like this. So lets make this a marking point. I'm doing a 180 and changing the way I feel about this which means doing what I want, making myself feel good, having faith in myself, ect ect. I even picked out a few good role models (mostly rocker chicks from the 90's/80's/70's)

•  Alanis Morissette, Joan Jett, Janis Joplin, Madonna, Cyndi Lauper, Lady GaGa

I mean these girl's are the epitome of girl power and being who you want to be. Perfect motivation for me.
On another note, who thinks Sucker Punch looks awesome? I know it's like a total "guy movie" but it looks CRAZY. I'm all for girl power and kicking some huge butt so I think I'll be seeing that sometime soon!

With all this stress going on, it's always good to have something make you feel better. One of those things is of course, shopping. I only picked up a few things but it just relieves tension and stress.
Another good thing would be WINNING. No, I'm not Charlie Sheen, but my group of nerds and I just won our Botball competition and we are possibly going to California this summer!
I really wish I had some more exciting news but it's all rather boring right now so I'll just leave this where it is in hopes that I can be more exciting later.

Yes yes I abandoned ship again but I got sick and then really discouraged to do anything really. But now I'm gonna try again. Maybe I'll actually keep up and be consistent this time!

                                    (Sorry for the lack in makeup. Just try and focus on my hair.)
I've been wearing my hair in a specific way recently. One that's easy and doesn't require much work.I actually got it from:

                                                                        this video^^
Its from a beauty guru on Youtube. She goes by Bubz and her channel (bubzbeauty) is amazing. I love her and her cutesy style so much.

My nails I actually did today on a whim and I cannot be more proud of them:




Yes I have pokeball nails. I think a part of my childhood wanted to come out today.

1. So it's been about a week hasn't it? I've really lost track of time lately and I've just gotten in the mood to post something so I apologize for the incredible lack of posts.
2. Regarding my eye, it's better. I went to get new contacts yesterday and the lady said I have to go at least another a four days without them while taking these special medicated drops that have steroids in them? They're supposed to shrink my eye-scar (ew.) 
3. I haven't done much shopping and I'm having a really hard time coping with this. I feel like that girl in Shopaholic. I wish I had money to buy stuff, I guess I'll have to wait until I get a job!
4. This is gonna be the last of the daily check-ups. Instead, I'm gonna use DailyBooth (My Daily Booth account is in this sentence. Just click on it!) and then do a weekly-check-up with all the details of my week (less work for me.)

Okay so you know how I was supposed to be blogging everyday and I was supposed to be on the ball at all times? Well the universe I don't think wants me to day that because on Thursday, my eye had this terrible pain in it and I had no clue what was going on. It was stinging, sensitive to light, and really irritated. I was freaking out so my mom took me to the ER. The plus was that they had a little basket that they gave out cheese-its in. So anyways, they took me in the back and then they put weird stinging drops in my eye that made it numb and then this stick thing that made it whatever was bugging me show up on a black light. Turns out I have a fairly large scratch on my eye. Then he put ointment ON my eye and made an eye patch out of gauze. So I've been out of commission and I will be until my eye isn't swollen anymore. Be back soon!

1. For sure got at least one D on report cards. Awesome right? I'm trying so hard to not get anymore but it's looking tough. This isn't happening again. Trust me. 
2. I really have started to appreciate my friends. They make me feel better when I feel like poop. I mean, I've always appreciated them, but now I've noticed how lost I'd be without them. 
3. I'm gonna be honest, I only have one pair of pants. Its ridiculous how much I've grown and how fast I grew out of my old jeans. I need new pants obviously. A pair of black ones and a pair of darker wash would also work.

1. I've been worried sick. I hate school. Grades are making me stress out beyond repair. I mean really? Does it have to be this hard? I work and work to try and do my best but my best is obviously not enough for anyone.
2. I'm getting by from listening to music. So far I've downloaded about one hundred songs in the past two weeks. I also heard a snippet of Panic! At The Disco's (Oh yeah, they picked up the !) newest single that will be released on February 1st along with Lady GaGa's single.
3. Been shopping recently. I picked up a few things; black v-neck, black nail polish, kabuki brush and the new Maybelline FITME foundation? I think that's what it's called. I'll try it out tomorrow and see how it goes. 

• "Isn't she the ho of the 50's?"
• "The chick with the white dress and man-hole lady?"
• "She's so pretty! I loved her short blond hair and brown eyes!"

I think my friends are a little lacking in words of how amazing Ms.Monroe actually was. She was an actress, singer, and one of the infamous fashion icons from the 50's. Her style and beauty shaped the future generations and showed everyone that being yourself is the most beautiful things of all. She was proud of her unique body shape and she embraced her flaws and made them beautiful.

I've been working really hard on unimportant things and I've been sitting in my bed doing nothing. That's all.

It's a school project. I had to watch a movie (I was so happy when I found out Amadeus was on it) and make an original movie poster for it. Pretty good if you ask me!